I have been incessantly thinking about, dwelling on and nagging my self over my word choice for 2013. And guess what? I still don't have one. A word hasn't chosen me. I haven't chosen a word. Either way, here we are two weeks in to the new year and there isn't a word. Nada. I mean I know words and words have flooded my thoughts and all that but there hasn't been one ta-da moment if you can relate.
It began before 2012 came to a close. I assumed it would be simple. Just pop right into my head during quiet time or maybe jump off the pages as I read, linger after a sermon. Alas, no. When explaining this concept of a word of the year to Husband Jared he just shook his head. What was my word last year he asked. When I responded "listen", he said to what. Then I patiently took the time to explain to him what I was listening for and to and all that. Maybe I just didn't do such a great job adhering to my word or allowing it to inspire the way it was intended to. Must not have been quite the example I desired to be.
Despite that and my loss for a word for this year of 2013 I am searching. Still listening. Waiting. I thought I had one. I was almost certain it would be "love". But that just didn't stick. Didn't sink into my heart the way I had hoped. Now I'm left without a word. "Do" was the other choice. Then I thought of the Nike slogan, "Just do it", and I discarded that one altogether. Am I not listening closely enough? Not seeing what's staring me in the soul? Please help.
I need a word. And a meaningful one at that. One that throughout the long days and the joy-less afternoons and on my knees in prayer kind of nights that will continue to spur me on. A word that will offer a reminder of the intention of this year. Am I placing too much emphasis on this? Perhaps I am. Still, I want a word. Maybe if I close my eyes I will see it there, in the dark? Or possibly waiting with the sunrise in the morning? I know it will find me and as soon as it does I will share it with all of you.
It began before 2012 came to a close. I assumed it would be simple. Just pop right into my head during quiet time or maybe jump off the pages as I read, linger after a sermon. Alas, no. When explaining this concept of a word of the year to Husband Jared he just shook his head. What was my word last year he asked. When I responded "listen", he said to what. Then I patiently took the time to explain to him what I was listening for and to and all that. Maybe I just didn't do such a great job adhering to my word or allowing it to inspire the way it was intended to. Must not have been quite the example I desired to be.
Despite that and my loss for a word for this year of 2013 I am searching. Still listening. Waiting. I thought I had one. I was almost certain it would be "love". But that just didn't stick. Didn't sink into my heart the way I had hoped. Now I'm left without a word. "Do" was the other choice. Then I thought of the Nike slogan, "Just do it", and I discarded that one altogether. Am I not listening closely enough? Not seeing what's staring me in the soul? Please help.
I need a word. And a meaningful one at that. One that throughout the long days and the joy-less afternoons and on my knees in prayer kind of nights that will continue to spur me on. A word that will offer a reminder of the intention of this year. Am I placing too much emphasis on this? Perhaps I am. Still, I want a word. Maybe if I close my eyes I will see it there, in the dark? Or possibly waiting with the sunrise in the morning? I know it will find me and as soon as it does I will share it with all of you.
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January 15, 2013 at 7:59 AM
Grace!
January 17, 2013 at 9:27 AM
HUMBLE! I think this word serves you and your family as I think of the many things you do for others and the gracious family that you are! Love and miss you, Auntie Robin xoxo
January 17, 2013 at 9:38 AM
Auntie Robin, thank you. Your words do humble me, so very sweet. Miss you tons. xo